You're going to see this one and decide, if you hadn't already, that we are crazy people.
Here we go again! I am still in a bit of shock. Because, seriously, who would have ever, ever, ever have predicted that I would have four kids. Furthermore, who would have ever predicted that three of these kids would come within a span of less than four years. I'm predicting wild times at my house.
I'm past the danger zone, pretty much. I know anything can always happen, any time, but I always feel like I can finally breathe after seeing the ultrasound and knowing that all of the parts are where they are supposed to be. I am always still sort of amazed if my babies stick, if you know what I mean. I don't even know what it would be like to just enjoy a pregnancy, without all of the worry, without constantly checking for signs that something has gone wrong. I'm so glad nothing has gone wrong. SO glad.
Speaking of parts, or lack thereof, it's a girl, proving that I have no mother's intuition whatsoever, because I was nearly certain it was a boy. Jonah wants to name her Basicle, Blist, or Comee. I think we will not be doing that fun thing where you let the siblings pick a name! Matt seems unsure about having yet another sibling added to the mix (I don't think he's ever quite gotten over the end of his reign as All-Powerful Only Child), but I'm sure he will be incredibly helpful. Sofie has no idea what's going on, but loves to poke me in the belly at random times and remind me that it's a baby. Thanks, Sofie. Got it.
As for me, I'm excited. Looking forward to another newborn (LOVE newborns!). Also terrified. There are all kinds of things that I feel like I am relatively competent at, but momhood isn't exactly one of them. I love my kids, and I can even say that I enjoy them, but most of the time I feel like I have NO idea what I am doing. We've had a chaotic year, and we are only just now adjusting to some relative calm, so I'm sure that's part of it, but still... Being a mom to three kids is really hard sometimes. I am so hopelessly clueless about momhood under the current scenario, so I worry a bit about how this is all going to go. I'm sure there will be a lot of muddling through and wondering how those put-together moms pull it off. I like to tell myself that even the put-together moms probably feel like they have NO idea what they are doing.
So, anyway, that's the latest! It's been a big year with lots of big changes and big news. It needed a little cherry on top.